lilybutter: i am depressing myself.

I am Lost ... (

lilybutter) wrote,
@ 2005-08-13 22:05:00

Current music:	i'm hungry
Entry tags:	adventures, pitt

i am depressing myself.
i was gonna hit pointlessfest today but i didnt realise it started at 2pm and not 7:30 pm.. so fuckin ooops i was thinking that maybe id just get really really really stoned and go fina a midnight movie to go see... i never did anything for my birthday yat and i told myself i could spend a whole day watching movies stoned in a theater and eat whatever candy i wanted and i havent gone yet.. and the only thing i wanna see playing right now is devils rejects and its 10:40 at 69th street so fuck that... the house in pitt city

phone call july 27th
...so i found this pitbull on the street, and hes a way better protective boyfreind to me then my knife i used to have... `have you been back to the house yet? to like scavange or whatever` oh yes... i went with the lady from the newspaper im freinds with, she took a picture of me climbing in the junk `was there any stuff left that wasnt fucked up or what?` oh... the whole thing kind of caved in to the ground... it burned right up and the appartments all fell in to the basement... its very condenced `fuck..... fuck... oh shit.. did you loose all your note books and writing ???!` yeh... all except my recent book... all my old books and my journals and my stories i did are gone... but im actually more sad that i lost a bunch of library books and now they're gonna make me be in trouble...and some books that freinds loaned me that were real special books you have to mail order... `FUCK !!!! what about your medical books ?? like your desk refference and yer merk manual and that...?` i got some good stuff tho... i got a peice of some wood off the kitchen table and some metal things that i think were in my house... and i got .. remember the yellow chair ? i got a peice of the yellow from that chair... its funny how everything gets all burned up but then you find theese weird lil bits of things that were right in the middle of the fire... and my old gray camoflage pants... i got a peice of them too!! `ha.... .. sigh... . . . . shit....` and i took all those bits of wire you left in the front room.. and all the plastic had melted off them.. and i took all theese tree branches from the vacant lot full of blackberry trees and i tied all the branches with the wire to this burned up post that was right in the middle of the ruin... so i made my own tree in there... and i made a cross too thats the right size a cross is s'posed to be. `...nice.........` my freind took my picture with the tree branch thing i made... know whats funny ?? `hmm?` way up in the window ledge of were the kitchen used to be... i left my metal tea kettle there cuz i wasn't using it in the summer, and the whole building burned up and fell down but my tea kettle is still up there sitting in the window like always... isn't that funny !

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	theelectrick 2005-08-14 02:40 am UTC (link) Select
	rob zombie's wife is hot, def. worth going to see that movie for. and well, it's pretty decent. i didn't ever see house of 1000 corpses, but man, you should go see it. i'm gonna see it again soon with lj yourmom. (Reply to this)(Thread)

	lilybutter 2005-08-14 02:43 am UTC (link) Select
	is she the crazy skinny blonde chic ?? who looks like a slightly more better sean yseult { which is like frank black dating a hotter kim deal clone] (ie:potentially creepy.) (Reply to this)(Parent) (Thread)

	this is the electrick yourmom 2005-08-14 04:51 am UTC (link) Select
	yeah, she is the crazy skinny blonde chic and there is way too many hot shots of her fine ass in that movie. (Reply to this)(Parent) (Thread)

	Re: this is the electrick lilybutter 2005-08-14 04:53 am UTC (link) Select
	are you pretending to be yourmom cuz your trying to get rob zombie to fight her for objectifying his honeys ass ? cuz i don't know who would win but it would be a cool looking fight. there should be discount pyrotechnics and battle carboard robot gogodancers. (Reply to this)(Parent)

whitegato
2005-08-14 04:25 am UTC (link)

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hey wanna go see to the movie tomorrow?
i never did anything for my birthday either
actually someone gave me a dvd player which is an awesome present but since i dont have a tv its still in the box at the top of the stairs
maybe i'll push it into the kitchen
i should open it cause i'll feel really dumb if its got a tv built into it or something. since i never go anywhere anymore i really should become a tv watcher. maybe i'll go watch the dvd box, see if a tv shows up

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lilybutter
2005-08-14 04:51 am UTC (link)

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probably !!!!

yes i was just totally thnking about how we didnt hang out this weeks and i'm probably moving on friday for real.

and i'll be back here all the fucking time but im still gonna live in a communitee center in pitt city or somthing so we probably fucking ought to.

here is the mild complication:

i was going to spend the whole day drinking beer out of an arizona ice tea can in the church basement cuz i aint seen shit of pointless fest yet, except for hanging out in front of the place and not getting in even tho piggy is sober and head of security. cuz it was sold out.

and im sorta kinda sposed to go anyways cuz i wanna hang with people-don't-like-her-julie and shes gonna sell me all her medication... and i'll be drunk wih stupid sweaty idiot kids.

so heres my ideas:

1. wanna go to the movie monday ?? whats yer werk like ?? cuz i want to hang out with you all day and stuff.. not just meet for 3 hours to catch a dumb movie.. and i want to go to the movie with you. and i really dont want to put off this plan untill we accidently dont do it.. cuz that would bum me aout and i want to be happy damn it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2. wanna go to pointless fest ??? you really enthusiasticly like crowds right ?? we can hang out out front with julie who has to hold piggys dog the entire weekend whilst pig bes security. and we met theese girls from phoenix arizona who were really young and came here on a plane which gets them negative ten punk points but they were nice and liked fun and wanted to make frinds and one of the girls, tuesday, worked really hard making herself some leather chaps so plus 4 punk points. and 1 more point to each of them for giving me malt liquor. and 2 points to ashley cuz shes a warehouse wench at UPS.

3. i could go to pointless fest myself and then show up drunk and late to meet you. that would make me a total cunt so im not doing that.

4. id rather hang with you actually so maybe we should just go to the movie.. i'll prolly have to swing by pointless for an hour tho cuz i think its my last chance to see julie... cuz she an pig go to new mexico on monday... or maybe tueday.. they havent decided.....

5. we could catcch the matinee... then both of us go to pointless in the afternoon and buy julie's medication which will make us more awake... then after hanging out a bit we run away from the crowd and go construct and fly a kite or sumthing.. then maybe there will be drunk crust punk parties late at night that julie will tell us about.. we can show up at those after fklying kites and be fashionably late.. and then steal some hors d'ouvres and run away again and pic televisions out of the garbage and alyssa gave me a DVD or gore porn.

i like plan 5.

what say you sir ?!?

is my spare burrito still over there ??

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whitegato
2005-08-14 05:38 am UTC (link)

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yeah if it was in the fridge it likely still there
actually if its anywhere in the kitchen
its still there.
the kitchen is a waste of space and it needs to be filled with transmitters. the dvd in a box doesnt count.
235 are good. i got no problem with crowds as long as it isnt a crowd of people i know. and shows are very good. but i kind of wheeze lately and hold my side. but i can ride my bike. and i got medcine too, prolly a different direction then julies cause i tend to swong that way but dont discrimate.
monday i gotta work and then i'm in a book club. and i have a bunch of court that i'm not going to.

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lilybutter
2005-08-14 05:54 am UTC (link)

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okiedokie ....

how interested in pointless are you ??? cuz:

Sunday August 14th 3:00pm *matinee*

STATE OF FEAR reunion show ! the first 90s "d-beat" band from u.s. ex-members of disrupt and deformed conscience. profane existence

BORN DEAD ICONS montreal motorhead punks. ebullition

SCHIFOSI from australia !

BSA from texas

COUTDOWN TO ARMAGEDDON joy division giving discharge a hi-five. from seattle

CHRONICAL AD ex antischism ! from georgia

AOS brutality from CT

DISSYSTEMA philly

and i dont know any of thees bands but i think i saw born dead icons once and if i remember correctly they are a bunch of slacker punks who play punk rawk thats good but not so good that you'll remeber if you actually saw them before or not.

the shitty thing about pointless is that its $12 a day and it sells out fast...

and that piggy is an authority figure and wont let me sneak in.

i think we should aim to see the movie before getting to wasted... and actually i think it might be nice to not be wasted by 5 pm sunday afternoon.. so we can hang out and stuff and not just lie on the sidewalk looking at the sky going ..."wuuhhhhhhhhhh !!!"

like we should do that to but i think we should work slowly towards that plan over many hours... like be doing that arround midnight or so...

so part 2 of making plans:

A.- we could meet there at lunch and then buy tickets and see if the first band sucks and base our going to the movie on that.

or....

B.-i could splurge for the tikets and then we'll just show up later...

which makes me consider

C.- fuck buying tikets and we'll just hang out on the sidewalk like half the fuking traveller scum dirt who are allready there...

but i'd kinna like to see atleast one band at pointless.. and like hey... its my fake birthday and your fake birthday so i can waste money... and its summer... and i'll get the pointless and you get the film.. we could do that..

wutchatink ?

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	whitegato 2005-08-14 05:59 am UTC (link) Select
	les get tickets, i'll get em what time and where should i meet you? i'm going ot sleep now, say good night to the mice for me (Reply to this)(Parent) (Thread)

lilybutter
2005-08-14 06:08 am UTC (link)

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lets head towards the church of the first unit arround 2:?? kind of ish.

we will try to call eachother on our shitty cellphones and just wind up leaving eachother lots of awkward messages.

you'll know where to find me cuz i'll be one of the few kids present not wearing black pants with lots of band patches on them (i should probably get some of those so i dont get in trouble)

havent seen the mice since i chased that one guy with the frying pan. i'm naming him brownie-guy

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lilybutter
2005-08-14 07:06 am UTC (link)

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aos kinna suck but prolly sound good if they're loud and im drunk

bord dead icons are way better than i remember.. i think they were at the show i saw were this rocker dude totally tried to pick a fight with the guy who alwasy tried to go in the pit when he was too drunk to stand...that show was killer

actually everything on manic ride records is fucking nice and i just dowloaded it all

i am totally all about schifosi

australian crust core......(!)

if chronical really are in fact antiscism then i will be a happy kitten...

i think this is the wrong band but if countdown to armageddon from seatle are the same as
countdown to armageddon from spain</s> then fuck yeh !!!!! no mp3s but they look like they rock.

state of fear have nice album cover art work...

and disstemphisti whatever there name is

are nicely representative of everything i enjoy about the east coast grindcore scene..

east coast grind is the new garage rock... i bet they are landscapers and legal aids on crystal....

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	tagonist 2005-08-15 03:50 pm UTC (link) Select
	Did you ever play the bad dis-core band name game? Disagreement, distemper, discombobulated, dislexia, disarthria (means "difficulty speaking intellegibly"), distaff, disputed, disparate, displasia... A Yes, I know dysplasia, dysarthria, dyslexia... (Reply to this)(Parent) (Thread)

	lilybutter 2005-08-15 05:15 pm UTC (link) Select
	anti disestablishmentarilism !!! terminal hate !!! destruction of carnage !!!! _{legion of lessions !!!!} (Reply to this)(Parent)

	Oh yea...moving huh? luxuriouslolita 2005-08-15 03:54 am UTC (link) Select
	Ok, bye. (Reply to this)(Parent) (Thread)

Re: Oh yea...moving huh?

lilybutter
2005-08-15 07:24 am UTC (link)

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oh, i'll be back a bunch.

its hard to talk about what im doing cuz theres lots of options and i dont know which ones suck yet.

like if pitt city sucks im the hell back here and vega says i can live in his really big hall closet...

and broken said i can have his house.....

and julie offered me her and piggies place but that offer wont be good by the time i get back.

pittcitys is a lot of iffs....im strongly considering and preparing to stay the winter but i wont know if i will untill the end of september.

i have no idea what im doing time frame wise....the only thing i can really comit to is unreliability.

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lilybutter
2005-08-14 05:38 am UTC (link)

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now is as good a time as any to point out that the mouse under the sink seems to have spawned a half dozen baby mices....

they are gray and brown and i think they're cute and they're shitting everywhere and pulling theese dare devil sprints across my bed while im sitting there sewing.

they dare eachother to do this.

my ten minute attempt to catch one in a frying pan totally yeilded just me messing up my place even way more.

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	tagonist 2005-08-15 03:52 pm UTC (link) Select
	Dude, are you trying to fry mice? I'm torn between being a little grossed out on the one hand, and on the other hand appealing to your assed-out fuck-up scumwanker crusty fetish and daring you to do it. (Reply to this)(Parent) (Thread)

lilybutter
2005-08-15 05:20 pm UTC (link)

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call me a bourgeois sissy but im not in to gutting and skinning animals the size of wine bottle corks...

how much meat is that ??? a sugar cubes worth ??

and if i just cooked the whole thing id have to eat cooked hair and crunch the skull....

nah. if i got that hungry i think id rather cook up all the roaches in here... throw a few dozen in a sauce pan with carmelized sugar and and eat em like beer nuts.

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lilybutter
2005-08-15 05:23 pm UTC (link)

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my main goal was to have a jar of live mice on my desk that i could feed cereal to and watch run in circles.... maybe sneak them in to a grocery store and let them loose in the bulk bins....

i was trying to think if i had any enemies i could dump them on but i drew a blank..

i could get some old jars and breed mice in jars and sell them on south street

mouse jars !!!! $2 each.

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